Today is my best Saturday so far.

SM1301's students were told that the test is being postponed until next 2 weeks. We will be seating for the test on the November 2nd. Life is so great, hihi. For now, that is. Hmph.

I'm staying at the hostel tonight, this time with Betty. We got this assignment to be submitted next Thursday and we haven't even touch it. Hihi. This thing needs to be work out together...

And we're currently at the canteen. Menikmati jamuan sambil online. Yes yes we're being distracted by facebook and youtube. Hehe.

We'll have to go back to our room at 9. It's raining!!!!!!!!!!

So many things to do within so little time. Again, blame me for being a procrastinator.

On Monday October 26th, I'm going to sit for my SM1301 Discrete Mathematics test. 3 topics - and I haven't even finish revising one.

I have a assignment due this upcoming Thursday for my ED1413 Nature of Prove of Mathematics module. It was a 3 weeks work assignment, but hell, curse myself for being lazy!

I need to start working for my presentation and 2 reports on my ED1410 Mathematics for Enrichment module. I'm going to be the first one to present next 3 weeks, and I need to work very hard on it as this module is 100% based on coursework - yes, no exam - and yes, it means that I may fail if my presentation suck big time. Urgh.

My previous test and reports for SB1201 Diversity of Life module was... how should I say this... unsatisfying? I so need to start working hard to pass this module.

I AM SO LEFT BEHIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Seeing my family once per week... Now I learn to appreciate them. Being at home only once per week... I don't want to go anywhere when I'm at home. Let me feel the warmth of being home.

Having a tough live... the only people to turn to when I feel like breaking down is my family. I prefer not to become a burden to my friends...

Laughing seems to be the 'penadol', it smoothen my pain. But only for a while.

I wanna cry like I used to... but I just can't. A part of me won't let me.

I think.... I've become a new person. I can't find the old me within this body of mine anymore.

The world is a scary place to live in... The people... being selfish. Even me myself, being selfish.

How much time do I have left?

I'm finally seeing the beach after more than 2 months. I used to like the beach a lot, but now... not so much. What I did there was jogging with my abang Azhar. I woke up at 6 and then I went straight to him to wake him up. I swear I saw his I-don't-want-to-wake-up look on him face. HAHA.

A hour of working out, oh my, I wish I could keep this up everyday or twice/three times a week. I'm just lazy............ hmph.

And the picture on the left <---, if you wonder what's with that face, well, you should come down here! SILAAAAAUUU! HAHA.





And and and, presenting, the picture of my baby! Hihi.

LOL.

I came out with the theory why Mr. F is acting 'that' way with me. And he is a crush. Minor. Hihi.

1/ I am just making a big deal of it, or in other word, AKU PERASAN! HAHA.
2/ He likes me.
3/ He thinks that I am a weirdo.
4/ I seems familiar to him thus he keep on figuring out who I am, thus, 'that'.
5/ He did 'that' to almost everyone? Hm, is this even possible??

I'll add some more if I came up with something new. Hehe.

I'm not gonna end this post just like that. I better put up some more theory... Hehe.

What my ex thinks of me. You-know-who.

1/ He still loves me BUT we're still to young, so he thinks that we both need spaces before thinking ahead.
2/ He no longer love me.
3/ He hates me.
4/ He is confused.
5/ He was afraid of hurting me even more.
6/ He loves someone else. [If this one turn out to be a fact, I'll be the saddest person on earth.]
7/ He's bored of me.
8/ He hates me.
9/ He hates me.
10/ He hates me.

And I really think that he hates me.

What's worst is that I still love him, care about him. And I kinda like that fact. Hmph. Boy, I need you to know that I miss you. I miss you so much that I'm so sure that I'll be dead if missing someone is some kind of disease.

I am at the Female hostel's canteen, and I've been here all alone for one long hour.

I am starving right now yet I don't feel like eating. No no I'm not controlling my food intake what so ever, it's just I feel so upset.

And I'm upset basically because I've been planning on a lot of things to do today, well most of it was reading and try to catch up on my studies, but I failed. I started reading at 10 in the morning, and not long after that I'm already sleepy. So I dazed off for a while but I took longer time on sleeping than reading. Urgh. Then at noon, the same thing happen. Hmph. This is so depressing.

I think I'll have to sleep late tonight. I don't care if I'm sleepy or not, I'm free all morning tomorrow anyway. I will try my best-est not to sleep while reading this time!! I AM SO GOING TO SLAP MYSELF HARD IF I DID!

Bah, I'm going back to my room then. Gotta perform my prayer.

Oh yeah, did I mention I haven't got back home for one whole week? I am seriously missing my mom. I'll be back on next Thursday, Insya Allah, if my schedule allow. Hihi. Macam orang sibuk saja bunyiku atu bah.

There's so many things to do in so little time. I'm so lost in time. I let myself stuck in the world of procrastination. I really need to catch up. Only that there's always distraction and obstruction, delaying what I wanted to do at the first place.

I can't fail this.... I don't even want to fail.

I'm suddenly confuse with my feeling towards Mr. F.

At one time, I feel nothing.
At one another time, I'm being all hyper after seeing him.
Then I feel like I want him.
And again at one time I he didn't even appear in my mind.

Fooling around eh??

I'm currently in the hostel's canteen. Yes yes finally the wireless connection is being set up here. The bad news is that it's hot.

And hence I came up with the idea of 'petang yang panas'. HAHA.





I'm going to be left alone at hostel tonight. Betty and Juju are going to go back to their home. I have to wait until Saturday to get back home.