There's a lot of things in my mind that I want to forget. And there's a lot that I want to keep and remember. There's a lot of things that I wanted so much in life, and there's a lot that hated. There's many people that I want to love, and there's many that I wish I never met them.

This is how life works. I want to keep this in mind, but my heart refuse to take it.

I hate you.
I really hate you.

I wanted to mean those word to you. I want those word to became real. I really do.

But my heart, thought it ache so much, it keeps on loving you. Only you.

I don't know how long I'm going to cry... I don't know how many days I won't be able to sleep... I don't know if I can take any food... I don't know if I'm able to smile a sincere smile... I don't know... I don't know...

The thing that I know is... you don't love me anymore.

I hated this fact. Even long before I know you.

I've been in love before, several hurt me, and several, I hurt them. But I'm sick of those. I just wanted a sincere love, is it too much to ask?

I.. don't want to remember anything... I just want to lie there comfortably, and never made it back alive. I'm afraid of tomorrow. I'm afraid I'm going to break down again tomorrow.

You can go, and let my heart dies.

You can go happily, and make me bleed.

It'd be better if you just kill me, right here, right now. I.. can't take this pain anymore...